am i the sinner?

hey.. sorrie i nvr write in for so long.. too mani tings haf happened and i am those sort of ppl that postpones tinking abt tings and putting tings that hurt into the back of my mind.. the bottom of my heart.. and whn the tings in my heart accumalate to maximum.. i tend to tink too much and sort of break down.. then.. if i can help it.. i hug my dog and go to slp.. if not.. i jus sob and sob.. haha.. pretty unlike mi huh?
haiz.. dunno where i would b now without my close pals.. ppl who i can reallit talk to and they reallie noe how to comfort mi.. ppl lyk.. mich.. rox.. yr.. yea.. these ppl help mi whn i was down.. but they help on diff lvls.. haha.. anyway.. i wouldnt b mi without them..
anyway.. i finally can put one thing down on 'paper'.. there is this someone that i know is extremely angry with mi.. for wat? mayb coz i had a wrong decision? for how long? veri long.. why is it that mi and ppl which meant veri much to mi.. once the fate is cut off.. why is it tt the nxt step is that we become enemies?? haiz.. some ppl is jus so petty.. angry.. can! angry so darn long? now become my fault tt ownself gif up on everything..
anyway.. ppl noe mi with lame and happi and laughter.. and i gif them that.. sometimes its sincere.. sometimes not.. BUT.. nowadaes im reallie veri happi.. not tt i haf 'convinced' myself.. is that i can now look on the positive side of things.. and though its no easy feat.. i convinced myself to not beat tt dumb guy up whnever i see him..
=) happi is good for health