kk.. im happi

okie.. i noe my art is.. *gasp* horrible.. but sometimes i also cant help it.. im lousy at drawing.. i dunno how to color properly.. i cant play proper music.. my tae kwon do learn till like tt.. nvr even finish till black at least.. my stories are boring.. my studies are a mess.. sometimes i look at myself and tink.. wat for learn so mani tings? at the end its all useless.. yea.. yea tt's rite.. its useless.. play music.. so lousy and going to haf no teacher.. i will nvr make it big.. art.. i wanna draw.. but so ugly.. also dunno how.. studies.. sometimes i try so hard.. in the end i get like.. F9.. heh.. its reallie horrible.. my love life?? haha.. i tink its real funnie.. i mean.. its in a mess? im confused? haha.. den everydae im rushing arnd.. rushing my work.. rushing this rushing that.. im on my nerves everytime, i noe i haf no time but whn i haf i time i dun make full use of it.. im not creative.. i mus crack my head to come out with an idea.. and i can see that the people arnd mi are much better den mi.. can draw nicely, write nicely, fight nicely, study nicely, handwriting so nice, wah.. its like im the onli one behind.. haiz.. haha.. how lehz? even my best skill.. doing music and drawing i see someone with a much much much higher standard than mi.. wat can i do? haha.. im reallie hopeless.. or am i? coz im not going to gif up., yea.. u with the black hair and braces.. and ugly hairstyle.. yea.. u betta not throw urself into a pool of misery.. coz its not ur fault okie?? even mrs chew said.. u dun haf tt big a power to make other ppl change completely because of you.. wat u did was a small part.. u haf no entire fault in tt whole incident.. haha.. kk.. im happi.. why? coz every minute of anger means 60 seconds of happiness lost.. haha.. some ppl has been angry for so long, and lost so much happiness.. heh.. signed off with mani hugs and kisses, ^Jess^