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arr.. im so.. so stifled up inside mi.. why? im angry.. why do some ppl they lyk to purposely make things difficult for other ppl? i mean.. is it fun? do they enjoy seeing other ppl flare up in anger? do they lyk seeing ppl go nuts tryin to answer a dumb question? i dunno.. mayb they do find joy.. anyway.. haiz.. nvm
nxt.. i wonder if im lyk tt.. i wonder if i.. hmm.. lyk whn i wan something.. do i go arnd the bush to get tt something.. lyk.. on the surface i sae this but actually i mean another.. mayb i am.. but where did i learn it frm then? why do adults lyk to sae one thing but mean the other.. wouldn't it be easier if they jus speak their mind? is it that hard? i mean.. ppl can understand de mahz.. dun lyk.. gif the false impression till the last minute and suddenly.. whn there is no other way to get wat they reallie wan unless they sae it out, they jus sae it and get mad.. why? mad cause the other party cant be 'considerate' and read in between the lines.. but im jus lyk this.. unless u tell mi straight in the face i cant understand.. for example the hk thing.. my mum dun wan mi go.. but she was lyk "ask ur aunt.. ask if her sister can allow u guys to stay in her hse there.. ask if got booking.." in the end whn reallie can she saes "ur aunt sae can but i didnt sae okie" haiz.. such a scheming world..
sometimes i reallie think that humans shuld try to b better.. is throwing rubbish into the dustbin hard? and the traffic.. if each let each other and not try to overtake.. wouldn't it be a better society? haiz.. no wonder the world is delapidating by the dae.. humans deserve it.. but i also wonder.. will i be like this in the future?
love, puppy love.. infactuation.. crush.. true love.. now.. how do we know which is which? once i thought i was in love.. as in.. reallie deep.. but then again.. whn it ended i was tinkin how dumb i was.. so now i always tell ppl.. no nid so rush find steads.. wait till after o lvls.. hmm.. but why? throughout one's lives the end point is to get married.. ppl live to get married.. not to get degrees.. but.. nowadaes ppl wanna find money more then they wanna spend time with the family.. but whn questioned.. they go " huh.. i work so hard jus to gif u a better life.." life without parents.. life with money.. mney vs parents.. personally i'd rather b happi spiritually den to b happi materiatiscally.. which brings back the thing on how to know which one is the one true love? i tink.. onli God knows for his love is true..
oh yea.. i can b psychologist.. why? haha.. see the things i kip tinkin abt.. dunno why i onli tink abt this kind of things.. for myself onli.. hmm.. actuallie i do tink abt tings tt does not drag the whole world wif mi.. lyk my future life.. yes
yes this is wat im working so hard for.. all i wan is to haf a gd life in the future.. which caterizes mi with the above.. will i be like the above example? onli tink abt money and not family? nope.. i'll nvr do that.. i hope.. =P