jealous? in my dreams!

haha.. i realized that i've been fretting for someone unnecessarily.. if that person does not want to take life/ studies seriously, why mus i go care? i cant go force him study rite? haha.. anyway.. i realized how mean i was.. being jealous about other people.. haha.. they can study well, do things well, its because they could concentrate and haf the talent or sth.. for mi, i cant do as well cause i am not good enuff.. haha.. so in order to score better, i onli haf one person to beat, and that is myself.. haha.. so if i ever wanna be jealous of somebody for doing/scoring better den mi, it will haf to be jealous of myself.. yep yep.. haha..