why are we crazy?

was reading roxi's blog.. yepz.. found it veri in point.. haha.. as in, veri meaningful..
guess why i wanted to be a more stable person cause.. well.. haha.. i dunno.. i tink tt by being so childish and wanting play all the time makes mi seem like a veri irresponsible person and i do tink tt mani ppl view mi as tt.. a person unable to take up chores or give ideas tt can actualli help.. ah well.. haha.. even if i do change how i act, my inner self would still b like tt.. then, why change? haha
if by mi being myself, i can be the one who gives ppl happiness i guess.. and if i had said it once, i had said it a thousand times.. i wan to give happiness to ppl.. though lately havent been able to do that, well.. i guess i'm still trying not hard enuff then..
*tmr inuyasha! every wed to fri 11 - 1130! ahh! central*
by saying lame things can i bring laughter? can i help light up a gloomy day by being positive all the time to the extreme? can i spread the laughter by laughing in a funni way myself? haha.. hopefully.. but how long can i sustain? i dunno.. as long as i can.. is it possible to motivate myself all the time like that? sometimes it's tiring.. especially with my competitive attitude that don't allow mi to lose out.. haha.. well, i tink i did gd todae.. oki rox i admit tt i was a little sad cause i gt lower then you.. THERE! i said it! haha.. but don't worrie.. cause i onli had tt thought for a few secs b4 i went :"the opponent is myself" haha.. so i guess i'm curing myself of this almost incurable disease.. trying hard.. haha..
ahh.. prelims coming and am i studying? yea.. i guess.. nxt wk haf a lot of breaks i can study a lot! yea! haha.. i guess like rox, i also haf high expectations of myself.. rox cannot accept a failure for english.. likewise i cannot accept a failure for lit.. haha.. but, i tink for both of us, that has to change.. not onli us, others too.. the most formiable opponent is ourselves.. to win would be an increase in results.. but at the end, don't give urself too much pressure and things would be good! ^^
From a book called, being a happi teenager by matthew andrews, he said, positive ppl attracts positive ppl, while negative ppl attracts negative ppl.. your friends are a mirror of what u are.. *means i'm crazy and so are my friends! =P* so, while u are complaining of the environment, that no one understands u, maybe u dun understand the ppl arnd u too.. ahha.. okie this was out of point, wat i wanted to say frm the book is an example he gave..
Imagine you are out the door and u just closed it. The phone started to ring.. suddenly you cant find your key! you search through your entire bag but it has magically disappeared! when you finally found the keys, you search through the chain to find that you haf lost the key to the door! When you had the key in your hand, the door hole shrinks while the key size expands.. what is going on?! Finally the door opens.. guess what? haha.. the phone stops ringing..
Relax.. this is the story tt i always haf in my mind.. whenever i face something realli realli important and i am stressed, i tink of this story and i make myself relax, so everything would go smoothly.. then, think on the positive side of things and so there would be a positive aura around you.. things would be oki! haha.. yepz..
hmm.. and to get a positive aura, have to be happi.. haha.. and that's why children seems to never get into trouble.. they haf such a pure heart that they automatically imagines that the world would rotate arnd them.. although we know that's not true.. but we can still sustain the happi go luckiness that the kids haf! haha.. and that's why we're crazy... hahaha.. because we're too old to be named childish! haha..