I've MOVED! ^^

Well, I came back from the harmonica performance already. Actually, I came back quite long before, but have not came online until just before. I'm quite pleased with my performance, since I've once made a few mistakes. Oh yea, I played the piano accompliment. Been there since about 3.30 in the afternoon to help out, practice. The grand piano was nice!
So, after that I came home. I asked my mum if there was anything on Saturday, but then she said something about going borders. I know that most probably in the end we won't go anyway, but the thing is, if I insist on going out, then she would say a lot of things. Like how I don't care about them anymore. How can I convince her that I do care? I have no idea. But meanwhile, the guilt has been laying on thick. Sigh.
Oh yea, finally I am reaching my target of 20 pages. That's really a lot, but still, I'm revising a lot. For example, whenever I read again and find the paragraph not good, I'll delete the whole thing. But it's good, so I can get a better one. A risk though, is that I will end up with a worse one, then my time would have been wasted. But the time spent is fulfiling. So, I guess it's ok. =)
Am I SUCH a kid? Why do my mum have to control me all the time? I mean, I do know where my limits are and I don't go home too late, but the thing is, she don't allow me to go anywhere. And I really mean anywhere. Ok, that's much too bias. She does not allow me to go anywat either alone, or with my friends. Not anywhere too, that's also too biase. It is, anywhere after 6, or on weekends. Not sat and sun, SAT! why? obvious. I know, I know exactly why. She's afraid that if I go Y hope she'll lose me! But, I have already told her so many times that she won't lose me! She just insisting on believing that I'll change, she'll lose me. So? Keep me in the house forever? I can't believe it! Am I to be kept under curfew till the age of 30? Sigh. I'm bad. I'm really bad.

Holidays

I hadnt been posting, firstly because my com was down.. now that it's up again, i can post! yay.. haha.. actualli nothing had been going on for the holidays.. except for the prom.. other than that i've been doing nothing much..
so i've been ignoring my hp.. putting to one side and checking it like.. i dunno how mani times per week.. haha. so sori mich, cause i've realli been not checking much..
oh yea.. i am going to comfort taxi group to be their accompanist for their harmonica band.. haha.. i already performed at the zoo on tues.. going to perform again on next thurs.. i'm serious! haha.. at the YMS centre at 54 waterloo street..
yepz..
oh ya.. tmr i'm going to get inuyasha vcds.. so i'm going to buy them at a cheap price!! yea.. hahaha.. ebay rocks..
hmm.. who wans to go watch chicken little? haha.. if i go watch.. i'll definately talk about it.. chicken little spoiler will be the next or next next post! haha..

drifting with time

well.. on mon was prom nite.. quite oki.. actualli.. realli like nth, except that the disco part quite fun. haha.. yea.. i also dunno how to sae.. mayb nxt time i'll just post the pictures onto frendster or sth..
Actualli.. i'm not in the best of mood now.. cause well.. rox jus went to shanghai.. just now.. at about six? and jian kai is going to jap.. plus marcus going to beijing too on sat. dunno if i'll be meeting him before that, cause it seems like i'll have loads of things on. haiz..
But the things that i haf on, well.. one is the guitar thingie on fri.. and tmr is the cg.. i realli dun mind going to cg, but the thing is.. haiz.. mayb i realli have changed.
i dun wanna change.. but it seems lately that the more i try not to change, the more i change.. i am losing the things that made mi mi! i wanna smile happily but the more i try, the more i fail.. why?
or maybe it's just that now i'm not in the best of mood, that's why i'm saying such depressing stuff.. well.. hopefully tmr i'll be better. haha..
yepz.. i'm going to set a goal of fifty pages rite now.. yepz!

o lvl's over

well, ever since veri veri long ago i haven been blogging much, but that's mainly cause my computer is spoilt and i can onli go to my cousin's hse to use the computer if i wanna use it.. haha.. but todae is officially the last day of o lvls, for everybody.. yepz. so.. no more. no more stress, no more studying, at least no more of these for one month. yepz..
yep.. and actualli i went to get some stuff with roxy ytd.. in fact, i'm currently at mich's hse. haha.. but if you wan details of the 'expetition' ytd of the shopping for presents thingie, go to rox's blog. haha.. 'coz i'm lazy to type everything out and i tink that she did quite a good job in writing the whole expeience.
anyways, so now that exams are officially over, what am i to do? thought i would be veri veri veri veri vceri happi, but in the end i found out that the absenswe of things to do maks mi kinda... uneasy.. haha. maybe cause after studying for so long, i cant get used to the fact that i dun nid to study again.. at least for this month. haha..
oh yea.. i got a job in teaching a K1 kid, but after talkin to my teacher today, i realized that when i taught him during the first lesson, i was pushing him too much. by k1 he still had not grown any teeth and his IQ is a bit lower than avereage. teacher told mi that i gotta tell him slowly and take my time. that he cannot do wat normal kids can do. yepz.. so i gotta find a way in which i can catch his attention and make him think less but learn more! yea.
haha.. thinking of going on a dance course soon.. hip hop dancing, but that's a see-first thingie. so.. i'm going off now, cant kip hogging mich's com. haha.. b. ^^

the last post before exams

ahh.. i dunno why i'm so like.. slacking right now. Serious. Two more days to O levels! I can't afford to be breaking down right now!
But here I am.
Breaking down.
haha.. but since it's like that i suppose i really gotta rush the final round. Cause to come to think of it, i already have studied everything. Maybe that's why for the past week i haven been studying much. But it's sorta not enough.
I never study enough.
Well, now all i can do is really plan my time wisely. The subjects that i gotta focus on:
e maths. ss. geog. chem. phy.
Revise seriously:
a maths. lit.
Read a little on:
English.

I really want to get my points. It's not like before already. Now I can really feel that I can get what i want. But if i don't. I won't be so down anymore. cause it's not the end. So what if i don't get into the best JC. I can still go to some other place where i can still pursue my dreams. yepz. haha.

Oki. now on that MJC thingie? i find myself not wanting to like. even think about MJC anymore. It's so far. and the attitude might not be the best and everything. I don't want to spend so much time chasing a shadow. What i need now, what i want now, is something that is real. Something i can hold on to. Someone i can trust. Someone who doesnt go for girls by appearance. It's the end, i guess. But maybe not so. Maybe now i can clear my view and look around me, on those who i might meet, who i may have already met.

Oh yea, once more. I gotta jia you and rush the last lap! yea! and all those who are also taking o lvls. GO GO GO !! =P

I want to be happy cause i was sad.

i went to a few JCs already.. haha.. to rank them, in the order of the best to me first,
VJC
TJC
SAJC
yepz.. so that's that.. but i havent went to MJC. although i like MJC for the high tech-ness of the school and the nice facilities and the ccas, i know i shuldnt be considering MJC so much because of WHO is going there.
Yea, how can i do that? haha.. so bad rite? somethimes i wonder how come i seem to have so deep feelings that does not seem to be so deep. i dunno? haha.. but i guess i'll leave that in God's hands, cause this is something that i cant do anything to. and i don't wanna do anything.. =P don't wanna ruin the friendship we already have ma.. haha..

oki.. next.. ah.. i tink finally i am facing up to it, the fear i have, the feelings i cant put down and the pain that had accumulated to so much i cant take it anymore. Guess that i'm becoming more emotional over the fears and the tears i swallowed. But still.. i dunno what to do.. cause i realli feel like burning all the notes, the letters, the poems i still keep in my box, but i just cant let it go over me.. but i've decided.. cause frm now on, i dun wanna b the moody sad gal anymore. yep. i wanna be the happi gal that i used to be. i dun wanna mind who is talking abt mi or even who is hating mi. yepz.. haha.. i wanna laugh freely like i used to be!

Hmm.. also.. what did i wanted to sae? actualli i forgot.. ah! i rmbr le! haha..

i've decided not to b involved in those ppl's fights or quarrals anymore.. well.. i've got involved and gt blamed for siding to one person when i didnt.. somemore i gt blamed frm BOTH sides for siding with the other side! well now.. i guess i cant help anymore.. haha.. that IS a big relieve.. haha.. now at least.. i don't have to keep thinking abt how to resolve the problem.. but now, i can at least be sure that i don't have special feelings towards any of them.. haha.. that's good! ^^

Hmm.. exams coming and i'm not really studying.. but.. i'm going to start nOW! haha.. from todae on.. i'm going choing like crazy.. esp this coming week since no nid to go sch.. i'm going try my best to get into VJC if possible, and if not, TJC or MJC.. but i can be quite sure of something.. if someone fails to get into MJc.. i'm not sure if i'll go there anymore.. haha.. that is, if i can go into VJC or TJC.. yepz.. for SA.. i don't think i'll b going there anymore.. so far.. haha.. yepz.. and don't haf taekwondo.. yes..

I want to be happy , cause I was sad. =D