SeCrEt HiDiNg PlAcE: October 2004

Friday, October 29, 2004

love.. =P

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?
or Saying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...
if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have u ever decided not to become a couple
because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....
when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
We tell lies when we are afraid...
afraid of what we don't know,
afraid of what others will think,
afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back
and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow
and you never got to tell them how you felt?
(even if it is that you don't care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *What would you do if you never got the chance
to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?
People live, but people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid), you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
If you care about me as much as I care about you, you will send(or rather.. post) this back.
We might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So,
I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.
I look up to you,
respect you,
and truly cherish you.
Send(show.. or.. again.. post..) this to all your friends,
no matter how often you talk,
or how close you are.
Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them,
and tell new friends you never will.
Remember,
every one needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all,
just remember this and take comfort in knowing
somebody out there cares about you and always will.
I LOVE YOU!!!!

ahh the results

ahhh.. mi results.. haiz.. L1R5 is lyk.. 26? yepz.. so now wat? i wanted to knock the points OFF, but frm mid term to now it has INCREASED.. i haf DEPROVED.. haiz.. anyway.. haha.. why bother rite? its nt as if the world has ended or wat.. i haf one two months holiday to catch up with my work and i SHALL use it to STUDY.. hmm.. that is.. after my RO acc has finished the credit.. anyway i tink haf onli a few daes left.. so i can jus take the few daes to help other novices.. haha.. =P so.. i failed my physics.. and my a maths is horrible.. veri funnie lehz.. i thought my a maths is stronger den my e maths but this time my e maths is stronger.. i mean, better.. anyway.. nxt year is O lvls alreadie.. MUS MUS MUS MUS MUS STUDY!!!
okie.. this is beside the point one.. haha.. mi going to kip long hair.. cause todae at the dentist there i saw my pic whn i first went to the clinic.. whn i had long hair and i saw the difference.. a lot lehz.. i look nicer last time.. haha
and guitar.. i saw the timetable i almost fainted.. erm.. 9am - 5 pm.. every mon tue thurs fri.. on average.. wat is this? i also dunno.. i tink this is too much.. trying to kill us izzit? haiz.. den for the whole nov to dec.. its lyk.. no time to go out and all that le.. anyway i dun wan to anyways.. i onli wanna haf some time to myself to do those tings i wanna do.. seems lyk cannot alreadie.. and after seeing the timetable for guitar, i reallie felt lyk nt going for SYF and dencan haf more time to myself to do tings i wan.. but den i thought again.. this world, it revolts arnd mi, nt mi arnd it.. for myself if i dun join, i lose out and guitar wuld b one player short.. haiz.. nvm.. it will pass quickly.. =P
so, all in all.. my life is going downhill.. but.. haha.. wat goes up will come down and wat goes down will go up.. so.. jia you! jus relax and let life take its course? eh.. no.. cannot relax, but cannot b too tensed up too.. =P
-jessxw-

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

im reallie sorrie.. i mean it

ytd went to ps wif rox.. supposed to go wif kenneth and mich but cause i thought i culdnt go, but culd go, i asked rox to go wif kenneth meet mich instead, den rox didnt wan, so guess tt plan didnt work out..
aiyoz... why mi so bad? yepz.. instead of asking kenneth and mich too, i went alone wif rox to ps.. haiz.. the worst thing was that i knew that kenneth seriously wanted to go.. but how? wat's done is done.. jus that i haf to wait till mayb their anger nt so much le.. but i noe, im changed
since i started going out wif yr they alll, i've changed, instead of being considerate and thinking of others, putting others before myself i've become selfish, thinking of myself onli.. i dun care abt others le.. for those i've hurt, i dunno wat to do and that's the truth.. i'm me, i'm jus at loss whn someone is angry at mi, at loss whn i hurt someone.. that, i haf ta find back my nature
nt that i wanna sae that tt dunman sec grp is bad, they're nt.. real cool grp of guys.. haf fun, yea.. watever.. but i haf ta find someone who reallie cares.. i know of a few, but to remind myself in the future, mich is a gd frend
at least she tells mi whn im going bad, haha.. i am.. so, jess. or xi wen.. i hope that my nature comes back.. go backt who i was b4.. go back to less bad.. and live everidae with a consious guiltfree mind.. haha.. okie.. if mich u ever see this, thanks a lot for that reprimandment.. thanks..
nxt.. exams.. AHHH.. okie. so far my results are ups and downs.. listed below
chemistry => B4
Social Studies => A2
Chinese => B3
Physics =>D7
E math => A2
A Math => C6
i tink that this is reallie ups and downs.. in sch jus now i cried whn i got back my compre.. why? cause i failed it.. i dun get it.. i love english so much but im getting worser and worser.. wat's up wif mi??? haiz.. hope that this changes.. i reallie hope so.. but luckily for the others its okie.. jus that my a maths.. i also dunno why get so low.. mayb i didnt study gd enuff.. im lyk. half satisfied wif my results onli.. so hols im gonna work harder.. hope that i can do betta nxt yr, o lvls nxt yr!!!
Last ting.. ya noe, i reallie think that the three musketteers haf drifted apart.. all of us changed and seemed to go further and further each dae.. wat can i do but to shelf this prob? haiz.. hope that soon, veri soon, God can bind us back to who we were b4, teaching us good frm wrong.. i reallie hope so.. and i will do my best to let bring back the frendship and trust the frends had.. i reallie hope so..