so happi!!!

haha.. so cool lohz.. my chem, which always get so so so bad.. finally get a 60!! u noe how much is 60 to me?? It is like i ginally achieved a near miracle!! so happi!! but i also cannot be proud.. mus remind myself that i mus continue to work hard and not be over confident.. haha.. yay..

jealous? in my dreams!

haha.. i realized that i've been fretting for someone unnecessarily.. if that person does not want to take life/ studies seriously, why mus i go care? i cant go force him study rite? haha.. anyway.. i realized how mean i was.. being jealous about other people.. haha.. they can study well, do things well, its because they could concentrate and haf the talent or sth.. for mi, i cant do as well cause i am not good enuff.. haha.. so in order to score better, i onli haf one person to beat, and that is myself.. haha.. so if i ever wanna be jealous of somebody for doing/scoring better den mi, it will haf to be jealous of myself.. yep yep.. haha..

Depressed..

I'm so depressed now.. i feel lyk everything is my fault.. though i know.. yea.. not all is my fault but i feel like mostly everything is i cause one.. somemore my studies.. im the worst of my frends.. i see them.. getting better and better grades.. mine lehz? getting worse and worse.. the ting is.. im depressed.. i haf this mind concept that one of my frend is veri unhappi.. i jus nid to talk to him.. jus nid to ask him if he is happi or not.. if he answers yes everything will be solved.. if not.. i reallie dunno wat i'll do.. probably jus break down.. most likely i will gif up on everything.. but now.. jus as my chem i finally haf confidence that i can pass.. i haf to rmbr this ting again.. jus as i start to get inspiration to study.. i get depressed again.. haiz.. i reallie dunno how lohz.. i nid someone to wake mi up.. no.. i nid to talk to him.. yea that's rite..

when the sky falls

When the sky turns black
And the rain falls
People running to the shelters
Shading from the nature
Sometimes when the truth is there
You chose to hide away
But its not the way. i've got to say

I'll be here for you
I'll be here no matter what you do
Even when the sky falls
And even when the earth splits
Dont be scared for I'll be here for you

When the lightning strikes
And the thunder sounds
People packing up and leave
Escaping from the to be storm
Sometimes the fact is before your eyes
You yet chose to run away
But its not the way, i've got to say

I'll be here for you
I'll be here no matter what you do
Even when the sky falls
And even when the earth splits
Dont be scared for i'll be here for you

And people think that they are right
Where it hurts it'll be alright
All they have to do is to ignore
And the pain will heal
No, its not the way, i've got to say

I'll be here for you
I'll be here no matter where you go
Even when the sky falls
And even when the earth splits
Don be afraid, for i'll be here for you

funnie..

okie.. so todae mi and rox were at school.. raining reallie reallie heavily, so instead of going outside to eat we ate at sch.. den whn we were eating, the rain stopped.. swt.. haha.. anyways whn we left it started raining heavily.. nvm.. we waited for a while den the rain lessen.. we walk walk walk walk.. to the east meadows there rite, i started singing this:
"Rain rain come again
Go away another dae
Little children wanna plae
Rain rain come again.."
horrors of horrors! the rain started getting a little heavier.. i stopped, den started singing nonstop.. like chanting some dunno wat like that.. haha.. den we heard the rain getting heavier and heavier..so i turned back and guess wat.. the area we were standing on was actually light rain.. but whn we turned we saw the heavy cloud moving.. so we could actually see the heavy rain come closer.. no time run one.. haha.. its like.. coming.. coming.. den suddenly the heavy rain is on us.. wah hahahaha.. whole body wet.. heh.. my fault.. sorrie rox! heh..

haha.. so mani songs.. last one todae.. Truely madly deeply

I'll be your dream,
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope,
I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful
'cause I'm counting on

A new beginning.
A reason for living.
A deeper meaning.

I want to stand with you on a mountain.
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever.
til the sky falls down on me...

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest power. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

I want to stand with you on a mountain,
I want to bathe with you in the sea.
I want to lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down on me...

crash and burn

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

chained to you

We were standing all alone you were leaning in to speak to me
Acting like a mover shaker dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
And I think about it all the time
Sweet temptation rush all over me
And I think about it all the time
Passion desire so intense I can't take anymore because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

And when you looked into my eyes felt a sudden sense of urgency
Fascination casts a spell and you became more than just a mystery
And I think about you all the time
Is this fate is it my destiny
That I think about you all the time
I no longer pretend to have my hand on the wheel because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you
I feel the magic building around you

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

And I think about it all the time
And I think about it all the time
Tell me it's madness I barely know you
We were standing all alone you were leaning in to speak to me
Ten steps back you're still a mystery
Acting live a mover shaker dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
I can't take anymore because

I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

I feel the magic building around you
I feel the magic all around you
It's bringing me to my knees
Like a wannabe
I've got to be chained to you

Tell me it's madness
I barely know you

kk.. im happi

okie.. i noe my art is.. *gasp* horrible.. but sometimes i also cant help it.. im lousy at drawing.. i dunno how to color properly.. i cant play proper music.. my tae kwon do learn till like tt.. nvr even finish till black at least.. my stories are boring.. my studies are a mess.. sometimes i look at myself and tink.. wat for learn so mani tings? at the end its all useless.. yea.. yea tt's rite.. its useless.. play music.. so lousy and going to haf no teacher.. i will nvr make it big.. art.. i wanna draw.. but so ugly.. also dunno how.. studies.. sometimes i try so hard.. in the end i get like.. F9.. heh.. its reallie horrible.. my love life?? haha.. i tink its real funnie.. i mean.. its in a mess? im confused? haha.. den everydae im rushing arnd.. rushing my work.. rushing this rushing that.. im on my nerves everytime, i noe i haf no time but whn i haf i time i dun make full use of it.. im not creative.. i mus crack my head to come out with an idea.. and i can see that the people arnd mi are much better den mi.. can draw nicely, write nicely, fight nicely, study nicely, handwriting so nice, wah.. its like im the onli one behind.. haiz.. haha.. how lehz? even my best skill.. doing music and drawing i see someone with a much much much higher standard than mi.. wat can i do? haha.. im reallie hopeless.. or am i? coz im not going to gif up., yea.. u with the black hair and braces.. and ugly hairstyle.. yea.. u betta not throw urself into a pool of misery.. coz its not ur fault okie?? even mrs chew said.. u dun haf tt big a power to make other ppl change completely because of you.. wat u did was a small part.. u haf no entire fault in tt whole incident.. haha.. kk.. im happi.. why? coz every minute of anger means 60 seconds of happiness lost.. haha.. some ppl has been angry for so long, and lost so much happiness.. heh.. signed off with mani hugs and kisses, ^Jess^

nice quotes...

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.

True friendship never ends.

Friends are forever.

Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.

If u love something...let it go.
If it comes back to you its yours....
If it doesn't then it never was.

A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come tru. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u.

Remember, every minute spent angry is every 60 seconds of happiness wasted.

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when
you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

To forget you must first forgive. Time Heals all wounds, no matter how deep the wound is.

mi?

todae veri bad ting happened.. my e maths, qhich i did 52 questions, got misplaced!! evvil lohz.. haha.. coz now i haf to redo.. dunno wat time slp again.. shuld b reallie late.. sometimes i reallie blame miself.. why cant i be someone who can talk and gif reallie good advice? all i can do is listen and sit by helplessly, not knowing what to sae nor do, afraid that wat i sae would b wrong.. and i wanna b a consellor.. haha.. more like someone to be conselled.. what my life nids now.. is one real shock.. like.. i dunno.. i got selected for a daredevil stuntwomen training? i dun mind actuallie.. jus tt i will b real afraid of getting injured.. haha.. if it does not matter, i can just quit school now and go into full time piano training.. den i can teach piano.. and if good enough, mayb even perform!! okay....... stop daydreaming jess.. you're not THAT good and you noe it.. haha.. but somehow my other side tells mi that i can make it.. as long as i train lyk.. 9 hrs per dae.. swt.. heh.. i dun mind.. lyk i said.. if i could quit school i would go into that.. or mayb full time art drawing.. i would go practice till im real good, and then help ppl do protraits.. i dun mind.. heheh.. i dun mind..

am i the sinner?

hey.. sorrie i nvr write in for so long.. too mani tings haf happened and i am those sort of ppl that postpones tinking abt tings and putting tings that hurt into the back of my mind.. the bottom of my heart.. and whn the tings in my heart accumalate to maximum.. i tend to tink too much and sort of break down.. then.. if i can help it.. i hug my dog and go to slp.. if not.. i jus sob and sob.. haha.. pretty unlike mi huh?
haiz.. dunno where i would b now without my close pals.. ppl who i can reallit talk to and they reallie noe how to comfort mi.. ppl lyk.. mich.. rox.. yr.. yea.. these ppl help mi whn i was down.. but they help on diff lvls.. haha.. anyway.. i wouldnt b mi without them..
anyway.. i finally can put one thing down on 'paper'.. there is this someone that i know is extremely angry with mi.. for wat? mayb coz i had a wrong decision? for how long? veri long.. why is it that mi and ppl which meant veri much to mi.. once the fate is cut off.. why is it tt the nxt step is that we become enemies?? haiz.. some ppl is jus so petty.. angry.. can! angry so darn long? now become my fault tt ownself gif up on everything..
anyway.. ppl noe mi with lame and happi and laughter.. and i gif them that.. sometimes its sincere.. sometimes not.. BUT.. nowadaes im reallie veri happi.. not tt i haf 'convinced' myself.. is that i can now look on the positive side of things.. and though its no easy feat.. i convinced myself to not beat tt dumb guy up whnever i see him..
=) happi is good for health